Shine For Me..

All shiny things are only shiny because of that protective enamel layer that keeps it shiny, that keeps it from losing it's precious lustre..

But the ugly truth remains that, no matter how string that enamel maybe.. Shiny things do often lose it's glow.. Sometimes predictable, and other times unexpected..

Still.. When it simply just wont sparkle anymore like the way it did before.. It hits you hard..

Lost and helpless.. Wondering how you never saw what lied beneath..

It's not something you would like to discover on your own..

till next post,

XoXo

I have friends now~~

we have alvin, ping ping, claudia, meikee, praveena and wesley :)

ahahhaa.. thats the video claudia took during our two hour break between classes.. they actually have discussion rooms here in the library.. which are sound proof~~ pretty cool huh? food here is pretty awesome too.. and we even get pizza delivery here.. hahahahhahahaha.. funny that ey? campus is really pretty.. but life is super hectic.. i have classes from 8am to 6pm daily.. and i have to walk from one place to another.. its soooooooo far away.. and i have to use my LEGS.. seriously people.. hahahaha~~

college life la..

so not the way they said it would be..

till next post,

XoXo..

i saw a pretty cat...

~Finally in inti college.. living in hostel aint that bad XD

i got my original room replicated by half of my hostel room.. teehee.. theme of room is pink thanks to my darling quality control supervisors.. teehee.. niroopa and kaveena.. the cutie pies :)

and food aint that bad either around here.. but then again.. you practically burn out everything you add on.. coz u gotta walk everywhere around here..

i washed my own clothes.. BY HAND.. hahahha.. funny la.. but it was kinda fun.. water pressure in the showers are awesome~~

basically, leaving home was really hard.. buti think i have begun adaptating here.. its nice and filled with trees.. not that diff from sdk anyway..

Home Away From Home~~

till next post,

XoXo

Far Away From A Place Called Home :'(

i miss home.. and i just arrived.. i havent even gone to college yet.. i miss mummu.. i miss my kakak.. i miss spotty.. i miss my room.. i miss sdk.. i miss the car.. i miss the trees.. i wanna go home.. and i miss you.. i miss wendy.. i miss oly.. i miss miza.. i miss sal.. i miss mar.. i miss along.. i miss everyone.. crying doesnt get me anywhere.. im registering in college tomoro.. see how it goes.. i hope i dont get bullied by people.. i hope i get to spend time with you.. i wanna go home.. this place is weird.. who pays 80 cents for chinese tea?

tears tears

sob sob

XoXo

A Little Girl's Prayer..

Star light,

Star bright,

First star i see tonight,

I wish i may

I wish i might

Have this wish,

I wish tonight..

Please please,

Pretty please,

Let me have a little peace,

For in my heart i will not leave,

Without you near i cannot breathe..

I want us to be 'we' all the way,

If it comes to 'come what may',

Just remember i will not stray,

I've been thinking about you all day,

And i have one more thing to say,

Please just tell me you'll stay..

Star light,

Star bright,

You're the one im counting on tonight,

Im wishing hard with all my might,

Please dont make me wait all night..

*fingers crossed*

i really hope this works out..

i really really do..

I thought yesterday was the best day ever..

sure it was kinda messed up and filled with shit..

but it was still the best day ever..

going up the swings..

sitting watching the weird squirrel jump here and there..

and yet..

you were unhappy..

i know you..

and u cant hide it from me..

i asked and you said you've been better..

i want you to know that im trying..

i just hope things get better soon..

im still with you every step of the way..

i want you to know..

im not expecting the ride to be smooth all the time

im not expecting things to be perfect..

but i also want you to know..

that you're not supposed to shut me out..

maybe i wont be able to help ease your pain..

but maybe i would..

i dont want you to pretend to be ok..

because i know when your not..

i know you..

im here if you need me..

i cant say anything more..

things dont go as we plan..

but i try..

sorry..

O ye' ol agony..

A lot has been going on..

And i have no regrets..

Baby baby baby..

Dum Dee Dee Dumm Dumm..

Well..

Finally.. it's here..

Results.. yeap people..

SPM..

Good luck people..

Im not gonna answer..

Any sam pat calls..

ZZZZZZZzzzzzzz..

XoXo

*Shivers*

I've Never Been So Sure About Anything In My Life Before..

I Don't Think I Can Be Any More Assured Than I Am Now..

It's Enigmatic..

Im Afraid...

Im Thrilled....

I Feel Like Typing GREEN~

Today.. im going to colour my post green :P

well.. yesterday right.. i did something illegal.. i went driving out on the main road.. and i dunave license.. im screwed if i get caught.. like OMG.. then right.. while i was driving right.. at the roundabout that has a crocodile standing in it right.. i was thinking -so good ah if i can see MoMo cruising past when im here- (yes i am a bit more fond of momo rather than the owner XD)

then right.. suddenly right.. i saw this silver glimmer.. i thought it looked like GoGo.. but i was like cannot be la.. and then.. i saw a huge red P on GoGo.. so i was lke.. holy shit.. this is dejavu.. hehehehehe.. so babe.. you saw me driving.. hot and spicey right? hahahahahaha.. then i slipped into my missing mode.. and spent the rest of my night stuffing my face into my pillow.. that has pheromones all over it.. ahahahahahaha.. people would think that im some kind of sick syabu addict.. lol..

anyways.. i couldnt sleep at all last night.. i was so damn restless.. but here's the thing.. i was so damn sleepy u know.. bu ti couldnt sleep.. i changed positions so many times.. finally what i did.. i slept int the opposite dirction.. with my head at the end of my bed.. din use a pillow and hugged my bolster.. then i got to sleep.. this was at 4 in the morning.. then i woke up at five to sleep back in my usual place.. i hate not sleeping.. i think i was thinking to much.. and.. i didnt dream anything either.. i hate not dreaming.. i love my dreams.. :S

you drive me crazy you know..

till next post,
XoXo

p.s~ remember to think green people.. the planet's dying..

MiXeD Up ~!@#$%^&*()

i dunno why these few days i've been i a major emotional roller coaster dude.. i look as confused as those two goats up there.. dunno which direction to go in also.. hahaha.. kasian kan? well.. a lot has happeed over the few days.. and im to emotionally drained to type it all out you see.. well.. just takeing things as they come now..

till next post..

Xoxo..

FINALLY~

Submitted my application to Inti college..

Its all good people..

SAM.. here i come XD

And It Gets Worse..

the day was weird.. started with puke.. midway with tears.. woke up with teaching.. went to shower.. had some silly fun? but it was weird and strained.. maybe i just need tommorow really badly.. i hope it's a normal die.. i want ice cream.. and peacefulness..