So this is goodbye..

Hey bloggy baby,
You know you're awesome right? Dont think that you werent good enuff for mummy, but i just needed a change.. You've been a really good companion through out the time i've been using you as my portal to allow my thoughts to channel through you.. Thanks for being there when i needed someone to hear me out.. im so sorry but i guess i might be posting my last post right now.. But maybe.. just maybe, you'll find me running back to you again..

Three cheers to you - bestiest blog ever <3



I've relocated to:
http://logorrheamadness.tumblr.com/

Take Me Dancing =)

I've been dancing in my room a lot... And in the showers too.. (i nearly slipped on soap.. serves me right).. I just LOVE dancing.. it releases the turgid part of me.. =)

Latest song stuck in my head? Men Without Hats - Safety Dance.. Pure awesomeness.. The lyrics are cool too.. =) in the sense that you should just dance regardless of whether you look like an idiot.. just shaddup and DANCE already~!

Hmmmmm.. im thinking about switching to tumblr.. should i?? XD

Dull

I feel like a pearl who's lost it's luster..
Im walking about like a lifeless body..
Smilling seems so heavy..
Im afraid im losing my sparkle..
Im afraid of losing myself..
In this time of hardship and emotions..
Im afraid of metamorphosis..
I want to endure this..
But i want to stell be me..
Have you really taken even that from me?
Are you that big a part of myself that you've left me a new unknown being?
Should i hate you for it..
Or should i hate myself for letting it come to this..
Carefree and happy i always was..
Not a care or worry in the world..
I feel so empty..
Like a moving cavity..
Im holding on to the remaining roots of myself..
I sit and wonder...
How was i before you came along?
I wish i could bring that part of me back to life..
I love you.. Dont get me wrong..
But im lost..
So lost it hurts so much...
Im lost...

Anatomy...

Today i had my first lesson for Anatomy 1.. Mr Nagarajan says that anatomy is the science of studying the human body and its relationships... As he further explained the subdisciplines in this subject.. He introduced us to several different areas in anatomy.. The one that intrigued me was 'Surface Anatomy'.. Refers to the external outlook of our body.. face, body structure and what not.. Well, we all have the same physical features.. you know.. the basics.. nose, eyes, hair, ears, lips.. etc.. exactly the same.. and yet.. we all look different.. i think thats amazing..

Angel =)

Angel - Atilia (OST Talentime by Yasmin Ahmad)


Angel
I have a dream of you I can't defined
You've been on my mind
Don't go
I feel lost without you by my side
Lost and on my own
Yeah I'm falling for an angel

Angel
Your brightest star is shining next to mine
Every night and day
You know
Stars exploded then they fade away
Then they fade away
Yeah I'm falling for an angel
Yeah I'm falling for an angel

Would you please be my babe
Come by and I lay you down
I'm loving when you say I love you too

Won't you please be my honey
I'm sorry that I let you down
Your eyes are breaking my heart in two
Break my heart in two

Angel
May the one above us keep you safe
Every night and day
If he knows
How I love the smile all on your face
When you are here to stay

Yeah I'm falling for an angel
Yeah I'm falling for an angel



Listening to this song over and over again through out the movie brought me to tears every single time it was sung.. its such a beautiful song.. omg.. her voice is amazing.. schockingly amazing.. i wish i could sing like this.. love this song.. omg.. love it..


I miss you baby..

Sayang..

Baby... =)

I is luff yu veli mach yu nou.. I is sollie i is imo nau.. Not me folt.. Yu manja manja me so mach.. Veli hart fo me to bee not wit yu.. I is solli i is shout at yu samtymes.. Me velli the bodoh.. I is think yu oledi no tat i kanot lif witautchu.. Yu is mai evlithing... I is solli wen i is iivel tu yu.. Me don min it.. Jus woMAN hormons go cwazy.. I is heppi tat yu owez der fo me.. Yu rok.. I luff yu.. Yu da bestiest.. awesomest.. superest.. hemsemest.. lovablest.. romanticest.. understandinest... and a lot more est.. in da hole waid world =)

I LUFF YU!

I miss this.. 

Inti Sucks...

Im back..
This place used to be my playground..
Now it looks like a cemetery..
Im alone..
Feeling empty to the core..
My hands are cold..
My eyes are sore..
I cant even look at all the spots we used to hang out at...
Do you know how bad it hurts?
I love you so much..
But i hate you for giving me hope that we'll be here together..
Im weak..
My willpower is below zero..
For you i'll try to be stronger..
I hate growing up..
You were my safety harness here..
Now i have to be careful..
I feel like a fool..
I need you here so much..
It's just not the same without you..
I know your still a phone call away..
I know that i'll be with you through whatever..
This is gonna be a rocky road..
It already is..
Fuck la...
Why am i so emo..
Im not like this..
I cant wait to get myself occupied..
I DONT want to be distracted..
I need to be good in what im doing..
I cant wait for these years to pass..
To have you to myself officially..
My hands are cold..
I need you to hold it tight..
Be patient with me..
These feelings are new..
Let me get used to this..
We'll be alright..
I miss you so much..
I hate this place to bits..
In 9 months anything can happen..
Im sorry i have to say this..
But i hope things do change..
And i hope you get to stay..
Still, i've got your back baby..
Long distance is the new rock climbing i heard..
Lets go for it then..
Bring on the ropes..

='(

Explanation!

I finally saw the light!! i was so amazingly emo on a whole new level and i only realised why today!! i was PMS-ing!! hahahah.. no wonder my pists were so retardedly sad and depressing!! i tend to cry a whole ocean of water during these troubled times.. hahaha.. i thought i was genuinely sad because i was leaving and all... but even i felt like i was overdoing the sadness.. untill.. tum tum tum.. the crimson wave overcame me.. hahaha.. and it all made sense =)

women.. so complicated.. XD

Clocks..

It's watching me, painfully scrutinizing my every move..
With every passing second,
It taunts me, reminds me,
Of what i've been trying to ignore..

Three days more?
Is that really all the time i have left?
i've been trying so hard..
To tell myself i'll be fine..
But im lying to myself and everyone around me
How long must i keep up with this charade?
I dont want to go..
Too little time..
I need more time..
Im leaving to soon...
I really dont want to go..
Im tired of not sleeping..
Tired of crying myself to sleep..
Tired of being afraid..
I just feel like screaming my soul out..
I just dont want to go...
I wanna be here.. with you..
like we planned.. but now its all different..
The damn clock wont stop ticking..

UNFAIR!!

God.. it soooo unfair when you just see these stick skinny toothpick sized girls chomping down a whole table full of food and yet not gain a single ounce.. UNFAIR! Curses to the indian 'voluptuous' genes.. wide hips.. thunder thighs.. a whale lot of (and i mean it when i say whal.. not a typo) of belly.. and of course.. the signature arse.. =S

And those girls? Eat everything under the sun.. and also fit into every single piece of garment under the sun.. goodness me.. UNFAIR!!

Hahaha.. well.. i got the inspiration to blurt this whole lot of lard after browsing through some random people in my facebook list.. the camwhore shots.. how do they do it? super skinny.. and the ability to take pictures of yourself? like.. seriously?? =(

Wellllll..... everything said and done.. i have to live with my curves.. haha.. i'll never be plank skinny.. its a fact i'll have to accept.. but hey.. respect to those who eat and still stay thin.. maybe its laxatives??

Food for thought ey? ;)

Happy Lemur's Day!

Im obsessed with lemurs now.. thanks to King Julian from the animated movie Madagascar!!

Go LEMURS!!!

Happy new year folks XD