Inti Sucks...

Im back..
This place used to be my playground..
Now it looks like a cemetery..
Im alone..
Feeling empty to the core..
My hands are cold..
My eyes are sore..
I cant even look at all the spots we used to hang out at...
Do you know how bad it hurts?
I love you so much..
But i hate you for giving me hope that we'll be here together..
Im weak..
My willpower is below zero..
For you i'll try to be stronger..
I hate growing up..
You were my safety harness here..
Now i have to be careful..
I feel like a fool..
I need you here so much..
It's just not the same without you..
I know your still a phone call away..
I know that i'll be with you through whatever..
This is gonna be a rocky road..
It already is..
Fuck la...
Why am i so emo..
Im not like this..
I cant wait to get myself occupied..
I DONT want to be distracted..
I need to be good in what im doing..
I cant wait for these years to pass..
To have you to myself officially..
My hands are cold..
I need you to hold it tight..
Be patient with me..
These feelings are new..
Let me get used to this..
We'll be alright..
I miss you so much..
I hate this place to bits..
In 9 months anything can happen..
Im sorry i have to say this..
But i hope things do change..
And i hope you get to stay..
Still, i've got your back baby..
Long distance is the new rock climbing i heard..
Lets go for it then..
Bring on the ropes..

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