Dull

I feel like a pearl who's lost it's luster..
Im walking about like a lifeless body..
Smilling seems so heavy..
Im afraid im losing my sparkle..
Im afraid of losing myself..
In this time of hardship and emotions..
Im afraid of metamorphosis..
I want to endure this..
But i want to stell be me..
Have you really taken even that from me?
Are you that big a part of myself that you've left me a new unknown being?
Should i hate you for it..
Or should i hate myself for letting it come to this..
Carefree and happy i always was..
Not a care or worry in the world..
I feel so empty..
Like a moving cavity..
Im holding on to the remaining roots of myself..
I sit and wonder...
How was i before you came along?
I wish i could bring that part of me back to life..
I love you.. Dont get me wrong..
But im lost..
So lost it hurts so much...
Im lost...