That ol' Saying..

I remember reading this line in books, and watch actors repeat this line in movies on the telly.. but i never really completely understood the logic in saying it..

"If you love someone, let them go."

Sound insane right? Well this is usually said when a break up occurs.. but this doesnt apply to me.. haha.. im not breaking up or anything.. but you know.. i had hopes and dreams of how my actual college experience would be.. prom.. walking to class together.. complaining about my day.. bitching about the lecturers.. maybe for once i'll break my insecure membrane and do something dangerous.. like.. clubbing.. OOPss.. bad thoughts.. ahhahahhaha.. well, now i have to face the facts.. reality is screaming into my ears and painted across every white wall.. haha.. i dont think i can put off the truth and try to act like the opposite might just happen anymore.. sure it was super hard when i first heard the verdict.. wow.. 4 years away.. a thousand miles away.. with skype and i talk as the only portal of communication..its a hugs change.. from being a kilometer away from each other in sandakan.. and a hostel block away in campus.. haha.. but you know.. i did tell you right this year i'd be Grace Kelly?

So i'd like to annonce that now.. i have learnt the complete phrase of the above..

“If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were.”

I know you are mine.. and i know that we can make this work.. no matter what you choose.. i'll always be there to hold your hand.. i'll back you up, support your decisions, give allowance to what you deserve to have.. so what.. four years.. i'll still be here.. Im indian.. so.. it's up to Fate.. i believe that if we were meant to be, we'll harrow through this storm.. and if we weren't then.. its just not our destiny.. but all i wanna say is that.. the sadness of parting is unevitable.. but when the tears dry up and the thin layer of depression peels away.. always know that i have your best interest at heart.. come back after 4 years... we'll be adults.. and finally build a future together.. so... because i love you, im letting you go =)

=)

IM SO HAPPY WITH MYSELF!!

I think i deserve a pat on the back.. haha.. i worked hard.. and i had an aim.. i got a little bit higher than i aimed.. which is better i guess =)

Yes people, SAM results.. Teehee.. i qualify for physiotherapy! Weee~~ old people and sports people here i come =)

But i know where im going.. i always have.. im just worried that i'll be on my own for the next 4 years.. Well, if its meant to be.. it'll happen.. so im keeping my fingers crossed...

Sigh..

Results are coming out soon.. on thursday as a matter of fact.. its all down to this now.. did my best.. hope the verdict is satisfactory..

I wish the clock would stop turning and the planet would stop spinning.. i need some time.. i want to talk to you so much.. time is not right all the time.. my patience and virtues are being tested  to the max.. i cant wait to be home..

You

You are my only exception.. call it cliche.. but there is no other way of phrasing it.. you are..

je'taime baby.. je'taime..

Cuppa Tea For The Yearning Soul..

Im stuck at home.. You're so busy.. Im leaving this friday.. You're leaving when i get back.. Ish..

Whatevs.. So i went out today with mum and dad and i got meself a relaly pretty dress with funky colours and it has this real pinstripes/hillbilly/girly feel to it.. its cute.. and i got another dress its silvery/blacky shimmery with sleeves.. but i guess it's too short to be worn on its own.. so out come the leggings =)

You know a perfect day to me is superly simple, and nope, it does not involve shopping at all. All i would ever want to make a day of my life all the more worth living for is to just spend a single day. Just one whole day with you. Waking up in the morning next to you, and watch you sleep while im awake. Make you breakfast and snuggle up while watching the crappy shows they have on the telly in the morning. Getting dressed in my super comfy pilak clothes (holes and all) and just sit, talk, watch tv, play scrabble? Just do things only the two of us can do.. But that never happens.. I spent today thinking about all the times we said we'd spend the day together.. and something always comes up.. naw im not gonna spill the beans here in cyberspace.. that'll be tactless.. But seriously.. Just this one wish.. that doesnt even come with a price tag.. has yet to be fulfilled.. dont get me wrong darling readers.. i aint complaining.. its just ironic.. the most simple things life has to offer.. is way tougher to achieve rather than those that are purchasable.. Life bites that way.. Well, i still have my hopes and dreams.. Hoping is not a crime isnt it.. it's just that, you gotta be prepared to brace the fall that comes with shattered hopes.. haha..

I miss you.. Thats all im saying.. Haha..

I dreamt about baby elephants last night.. this was soooo weird and kinda cool.. I was in some forest reserve center.. and i was there with my family and my uncle's family and we were there looking at huge elepants.. suddenly there was one baby elephant that was next to me and i was playing with it.. and my dad asked me if i wanted it.. and i said yea i want it.. and the next thing i know, we're litereally elephantnapping this baby elephant and there was a staircase to go up to the car park and we made it walk up the stairs.. which was not weird in the dream but was weird when i woke up.. and i had this huge ass Land Rover Defender, and we stuffed the elephant into it.. and drove back home.. and we had a collar for it and tied it to the banana tree in my backyard.. LOL!!

The first thing i thought bout when i woke up was, how we gonna clean the elephant poop?

Till next post lovers <3

uninspired..

I have so much of nothing to do right now.. i spoke to miss tan yesterday on fb.. she's really cute.. and she said i should go on a trip with boi boi.. LOL.. im only 18! well, she's really nice though.. and i've been just watching tv.. rewatching gossip girl, eating.. doing nothing.. sleeping.. and stuff.. nothing much.. im so bored.. typing this is boring.. bored............................................. *dead*

Girls Day Out!

Mum took me for a pampering ride.. first we did our face.. facials.. i hated it.. goodness me.. beauty sucks.. they poke and prod you like your a non erupting volcano.. haha.. but ma says "you look a shade whiter now!" whish i hardly can believe.. hahaha.. and then i did my hair... curls.. i look like a fusion of :-

                  

 




i got a little scared when i saw myself in the mirror..  not used to seeing curly hair after such a long time.. then mom said that i needed stuff from 'the body shop' and i said na'ah.. im too young and i dont use make up and ikky stuff like that.. XD well, she took me anyway.. lol.. and i got some stuff.. my ultimate favourite part is to go and try out all the testers!! one eye looked like a fused peacock and the othe one looked like it just got punched!! TEEEHEE~~

it was fun =)

Happy birthday~ or not...............................

It was a normal day just like any other day.. it become worse when i reached the airport and had to pay like $240 for excess luggage.. so i had to leave a big box of my novels with my uncle and payed $105.. and that was really shitty... and the airplane ride was kinda shitty to.. it was delayed and reached a lot later than it should have.. =(

I came home =)

two fat cats! two excited dogs! an open door and good food on the table =)

it ended up a reall nice b'day when i found a stack of goodies form mom and dad <3

it was a simple bday.. well.. i couldnt ask for more.. home is good enough..

Aww, cake!

Im gonna tell mommy to get me an elephant cake this year for my 18th!! 

Cant wait to be home =')

Russian Roulette

Sometimes i feel like we are all marionettes.. being controlled by our manipulator.. who watches from above as he twists and turns the strings.. prompting us to carry out the actions commanded.. as he acquires self fulfilling satisfaction.. from the innocent naive minions..

Sometimes i feel like our whole life has been written out for us, and we like characters in a book go on walking in the path that has already been carved for us.. like water filling a shaped glass.. it fills all space perfectly.. as it is supposed to..

Sometimes i just feel like whatever we do or say, is something we have been designed to do or say at that particular moment.. like an actor of a play.. each with his own words to recite...

Things happen in our lives.. whether it is against our wills or otherwise.. things happen.. and the cliche goes "things happen for a reason." But must all happenings be reasonable? logical? sensible? No. i dont think so.
Changes happen.. catches you off guard.. leaving you handicapped at times when you dont expect change to come.. again.. the manipulator dominates the marionette..

I was an independent, strong, sensible, close to mature young girl. Finally getting over myself, put a stop to wallowing in self pity for a love lost and standing right up on my two feet once again. Stronger than ever. I bult a shield around my self. To protect me from the pain, the hurt, the emotions that were all to hard for me to feel again.. I was so strong..

You came.. and changed me like a candle being blown out.. so quickly i didnt realise it happening to me until it was too late.. you embraced my differences and made me feel comfortable in my skin.. like i did matter.. and my existence had an impact.. Never.. never have i felt this way, i lie not.. In the beginning it was merely platonic.. exchanging notes on many things that we seemed to be parallel to.. Then slowly the anticipation of hearing from you and being near you grew more and more without me realising.. Hit me like a train.. Like a slap on my face.. i broke all the vows i made before.. with this newfound enigma..

To say it was meant to be would be cheesy.. and also quite impossible.. we were a coincidence..

You took me in and filled out my flaws, like the last shard of broken glass from a mirror to complete it... i could see my self in a away i should have always.. i learnt how to love and accept.. understand and tolerate.. let go and hold on..

Strange foreign feelings of being taken care of, being loved, being held, and being showered with passionate compassion was all to new for me.. it was overwhelming.. everyday was the same,, if not better.. Some people say that the famous "spark" and "fireworks" dont exist.. well i guess they just havent found themselves the complementary half just yet then..

I have.. felt it.. i feel it.. all it takes is one look into those eyes.. one stroke upon bare skin.. one word of whispered speech.. one breath of that familiar scent.. and i feel my system shutting down.. the adrenaline rush never fades away.. and the butterflies never die..

Having him everyday to myself.. never letting me feel alone.. ensuring i will never feel insecure and that i am always out of harm's way.. a simple "i need you".. and he is there for me..

Almost a year has gone by and i sit here thinking to myself what a changed person i have become.. from strong to fragile.. sensible to completely senseless.. independent to clingy.. i dont know what to do.. i feel so lost...

So used to the fact that you are always there.. i am afraid of what i will be when you are not.. i know you will be there with me every step of the way.. but it wont be the same.. i will wait for you as you will for me.. but i can feel it in me.. the emptiness i am going to anticipate.. with your absence.. i dont really know what life here is like.. because i see things differently with you.. im afraid that once you leave for another place.. i'll realise that this place is shite..

You have made me so dependent on you.. and now.. i face the reality of waking up from this rTeverie..

i am afraid.. of playing the sad marionette of the cunning manipulator..

Tell me that it'll be ok.. that it's destiny..

Destiny is the one thing i hope does not fail me..

A marionette shall play her part as crafted by her manipulator and does the actress by her director..

It is a gamble that we all sometimes indulge in.. so throw the dice and keep your fingers crossed..

Whoopsie~

Sorry babe, corrections to be made referring to previous blog post No. 21 of the SAM list:

Instead of room R2-13, its actually R2-09 =)

Love you rachel, sorry bout the mistake!

And thankies for the super cute treasure hunt letter too <3

SAM you leave me too soon..

Hey bloggy baby =)

Havent been very inspired these few days coz i've been having my final exams. yea. the public one (chuckles). In a blink of an eye, my pre-u life is over. Time flies alright.. regardless of whether your having fun or not.. Haha..

SAM MARCH INTAKE/SCIENCE (2010)

1. Met loads of friends!
2. Discovered the many types of characters that people have.
3. Realised that i am a focal point for heart to heart talks.
4. Experienced PMS on a whole new level
5. Found out that a test is part of course work (hate that part)
6. Bondi is heaven.
7. Tandoori lives next door ti heaven.
8. Midvalley is a train away.
9. Central station is the best for 3 earrings = 10$
10. Frilly frilly dresses =)
11. Ms Saras thinks i look weird when i wear pants.. =.=
12. Fell in and out and in love with Mr Yap.
13. BUBBLES~
14. Lab coats are hazardous too, especially if they eat you up =0
15. Its ok to waste litmus paper coz we pay.
16. Chicken liver canot be cubed!
17. UTI sucks..
18. Hiking is no joke.
19. Girl friends are the best!
20. R block ROCKS!
21. if R2-03 isnt fun, go to R2-02 or R2-13 <3
22. The rice cooker is a magical pot.
23. Eventhough i walk everywhere, i manage to put on weight.
24. The KTM is a sadistic mean transportation service.
25. Fries Fries Fries goes to your Thighs Thighs Thighs!
26. Gossip girl for ever.
27. I am a spoilt brat.
28. MPW sucks
29. I will never stop talking.
30. Guilt is the worst feeling ever.
31. SAM is the best mistake of my life <3

I bruise easily-Natashe beddingfield =)

"I Bruise Easily"

My skin is like a map
Of where my heart has been
And I cant hide the marks
Its not a negative thing
So I let down my guard
Drop my defences down by my clothes
I'm learning to fall
With no safety net to cushion the blow

I bruise easily
So be gentle when you handle me
Theres a mark you leave
Like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily
Can't scratch the surface
Without moving me underneath
I bruise easily
I bruise easily

I found your fingerprints
On a glass of wine
Do you know you're leaving them
All over this heart of mine too
But if I never take this leap of faith
I'll never know
So im learning to fall
With no safety net to cushion the blow


Anyone who can touch you
Can hurt you or heal you
Anyone who can reach you
Can love you or leave you

So be gentle...

I bruise easily
I bruise easily 

Fairy Tales..

Little girls,

Read to almost every night by a loving parent,

A beautiful story of a magical kingdom,

Of a royal damsel in distress,

To be rescued by her prince,

To be awaken from enchantment,

With the touch of true love's first kiss,

Placed upon that white horse as they gallop away,

Together in love the race into the horizon,

As the chapter ends with "... and so they lived happily ever after"

The loving parent closes the book and says goodnight,

These little girls tucked neatly into their beds,

Entering a new world as the slumber kicks in,

Fantasies of fairy tales galore,

Eyes shut firmly wishing never to wake up,

But alas, dreams are mere illusions of the heart.

I've always wanted my fairy tale, i remember all those times we swapped fantasies during girl talk session.. how he would look like, how he would come out of the blue and sweep us off our chubby ankled feet, just stare deeply into our eyes, soul searching; those penetrating eyes, how it would send shivers down our every bone.. How he would be there for every month, week, day, hour, minute, second of our lives.. How the relationship would not be perfect, sure we said we'd harrow through some tough times, but we said to ourselves, those speedbumps will only make our feelings stronger for each other. One thing we said was that, we were not going to beg. No we wont. We were convent girls, "so if you liked it then you shouda put a ring on it", we said that we were gonna be with him for as long as it lasts, we never believed in forever and always, we said our love would be all about living it to the fullest at the present. If he said he wanted out, then walk away. Dont get me wrong readers, im not saying that we were being arrogant, or sassy. But we just didnt see the point of hanging onto something that only we could envision happening. It takes two to make it work, what one lacks the other compliments.  Love that saying. Thats how it should be, wholesome and complete, complete.. not prefect.

To all the ladies out there, hear me out.  We're not perfect, heck even i think we're complicated creatures. I get pissed at myself too. We have so many things to handle and above that, PMS! Haha, but what im saying it this.. We all are on a quest for love..

Cheap Trick-I Want You To Want Me

I want you to want me. 

I need you to need me. 

I'd love you to love me. 

I'm beggin' you to beg me. 

I want you to want me. 

I need you to need me. 

I'd love you to love me. 

I'll shine up the old brown shoes, put on a brand-new shirt. 

I'll get home early from work if you say that you love me. 

Didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'? 

Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'? 

Feelin' all alone without a friend, you know you feel like dyin'. 

Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'? 

I want you to want me. 

I need you to need me. 

I'd love you to love me. 

I'm beggin' you to beg me. 

I'll shine up the old brown shoes, put on a brand-new shirt. 

I'll get home early from work if you say that you love me. 

Didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'? 

Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'? 

Feelin' all alone without a friend, you know you feel like dyin'. 

Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'? 

Feelin' all alone without a friend, you know you feel like dyin'. 

Oh, didn't I, didn't I, didn't I see you cryin'? 

I want you to want me. 

I need you to need me. 

I'd love you to love me. 

I'm beggin' you to beg me. 

I want you to want me. 

I want you to want me. 

I want you to want me. 

I want you to want me. 

Isnt this what we want to hear? I hope this doesnt sound like bullshit to my dear readers.. But this is what i wanted =) I've been through shitty times before, and regretted wasting so much time mourning a good loss. The heartache that comes when you feel the love slipping through your fingers, or when the glitter just refuses to shine anymore, hurts.. like a bitch it hurts.. Time's the only cure im afraid.. Sometimes we end up in little detours, what im saying is that sometimes we're with people whom we're just.. with.. for the time being.. which means, we havent really found "the one" yet. as much as you try to convince urself, when the other turns a stale heart against you.. you know its time to move on.. We are you, beautiful, carefree and FULL of spirit ladies, dont let a spoilt fruit eat your heart out.. come on, "sometimes love comes around, when it knocks you down, just get back up, when it knocks you down"  

Sometimes people dont realise what they have until its gone, so let them suffer.. A taste of their own medicine.. Why let life bite you in the ass? 

We all have fairy tales, we all deserve to live in one.. Have you found yours?

The one who holds you tight even when he's tired?

The one who wipes your tears when you cry for the slightest thing?

The one who who lets you drool on his shirt when you accidentally fall asleep?

The one who kisses you on the forehead even when you have stinky hair?

The one who says you look great on a bad hair day?

The one who gets defensive whenever someone tries to intimidate you?

The one who sings for you when you ask him too?

The one who'd be so dead sleepy but still spend time with you?

The one who sends you lengthy goodnight messages?

The one who randomly says "i love you" unexpectedly?

The one who doesnt care if you have furry legs or a pudgy belly?

The one who apologises even if you initiated the fight?

The one who is not afraid to let you tie his hair up to annoy him?

The one who would do anything for you?

The one who would hold your hand everywhere you walked?

The one who says "im gonna marry you one day"?

The one who appreciates the things you do out of love?

The one who gives you piggybacks on a cold day?

The one who'd drive to almost anywhere to pick you up?

The one who'd make sure your safe at all times?

And most importantly,

The one who loves you yesterday, today and tomorrow the same way he loved you the first time he said it, or if anything loves you more now even though time has passed you by...

We all deserve our fairy tales, 

Im glad i found mine <3 

Evening is the whole day...

I love taking a quiet stroll in the evening.. i used to go with shobby around the area i lived in.. the evening..it's ambiance so serene and calm.. peaceful and captivating.. you see the tired flowers yawning as they cover themselves up into a tight curled bud.. the sounds of the birds returning to their nests after a day of flying.. the busy sounds of the nocturnal crickets, and an occasional croak from the grumpy bullfrogs insisting that its presenc be acknowledged...

I love the evenings.. the breeze that touches my nose, eyes, lips, ears, rushing through my hair as i stood dangerously in the swings.. enjoying every moment of this part of the day, before it is engulfed by night.. Walking with my father at this time of the day, enjoying a peaceful father daughter moment.. not a word is needed to be exchanged.. for it is the evening.. and everything is just fine.. surprises in the evening.. a lonely stray puppy, or a baby bird fallen from its nest.. the little wonders of life.. is part and parcel of the evening.. the radiant glow of the sun.. not as bubbly as the morning, nor as menacing as the afternoon.. as it glows in regal rays, and the clouds drift by.. 

I love my evenings with my mother, as we sit for tea in the porch of our comfy den.. sipping spiced tea and dipping cream crackers.. enjoying a hearty laugh over memories reminisced.. conversations unfold without a hint of frustration, flows smoothly like clear water on a rock.. the evening brings such magic.. one has to wonder how.. I love how the sun falls onto her face and lights up those dark brown eyes, for a second i envision the way she looked like when she was as young as i.. the evening is definitely her favourite part of the day...

I love the evening as my darlings are let loose, as Brutus proclaims upon the death of Caeser, "Freedom! Liberty! Tyranny is dead!" cries these unchained canines as they are released from captivation.. I do love to see their expressions as they run about basking in the evening loom.. Breathing in the scent of the evening... Cuddling up to their beloved masters and mistresses.. Anticipating to be leashed and walked around the area, parading their most unacceptable childish behaviours.. And my snotty little felines, active by day and lazy by dusk.. stretch upon the couch.. marking their spot for the day.. without a care for the world, bat their eyes at the day.. anticipating twilight.. for the evening has come.. 

I love the evenings.. for it is indeed the whole day.. after harrowing through the tests of time, i find myself in a moment like this, a moment like this.. when the evening comes.. makes all the tough times seem worthwhile.. 

I love the evening.. especially when enjoyed with a loved one.. Remember the park love? when we sat in the gazebo.. still shy and timid at first, yet still so in love? Remember those days up on that hill love? Where we high above the world, like we were the only two souls that mattered.. embracing the sunset and the salty sea breeze... A kiss in the evening.. to seal the deal.. i love my evenings as much as i love you..

I love the evening.. It is the whole day...

My square root three is you..

I’m sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three

The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight

Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality

When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three

As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply

To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed...

Jamban..

isnt this a pretty garden ornament? LOL i couldnt resist taking a picture of this when i saw it outside  my the J hostel block while i was walking back from class.. haha.. it kinda lifted my spirits..

Today is a good day.. so nice and filled with content.. no problems.. np frustration.. i like days like today.. well maybe accept for the fact that wesley has upgraded me on the spoilt brats list.. well, some things cant be changed.. hahaha.. but that was fun.. his reaction throughout the conversation was epic.. like "omg this shite is unbelievable" haha.. well, the truth can be scary at times..

You know, i wouldnt mind a pizza right now.. or a wonderful Spicy chicken mcDeluxe.. or a Snack plate for that matter.. i crave for fast food.. PLEASE... have mercy on me.. how long has it been? feels like forever.. =( 

Today marks the 11th month, and i know in my heart that the days will keep going and i know this is real.. Im glad for myself that i know im in the right direction..

You rock <3

Blog Shblog

I malas la to blog.. nothing to blog about oso.. ish..

thats all for today..

bye..

Acceleration..

Mr Yap has made it permanent in my head that a=qE/m.. For the rest of my life.. its engraved into my skull.. lol.. Two weeks more to go.. i hope i'll win this battle.. even if it is a diplomatical win ;)

I got back 3 of my exam papers.. i failed physics.. expected.. got a B for Bio and a C for Chem.. lol.. you can say i gotta P for Physics.. coz its Pure shite XD

Gotta go wash the cafeteria outta my hair now.. ciao sexy people =)

='(

It's two o clock in the morning and im blogging.. i woke up coz i couldnt breathe..

And i realised i has cried myself to sleep.

So I cry in the showers..

Do you have those moments in your life, when you feel you've put in all you've had.. Hoping that you'll find that silver lining from that grey cloud..

I dont know what to do, i dont feel any regret, because i dont know what else i was supposed to do...

I really really want to do better, and to be better..

Failing just isnt funny..

How much must a girl do to study and accept the fact that she's doing something she doesnt have much passion for?

I blame the management, for not briefien me thoroughly on my options...

You bloody fuckers didnt tell me i had a choice...

To choose another subject and mix..

And you didnt telll me i could switch subject after the programme had started..

Too late to complaint now..

I wish i could do better.. For myself..

Every time the paper gets back to my hand..

It's the same cycle of self pity, tears and complaints..

Hiding behind a veil hurts a lot..

I'll be strong for myself..

I have one more chance...

To prove myself for me and my parents..

Surrounded by achievers...

I hope i'll pull through..

God give me some grace...

Let me find my silver lining..

Please im begging you..

I know only i can help myself..

But i need some guidance..

Give me that at least..

One more shot thats all i've got..

Let me do this well..

Let me do this right...

Mom and dad i miss you so much..

I wish i had you here to scold me instead of saying "it's ok try harder" on the phone..

Its not ok..

Im not ok...

I just wanna make you proud of me...

Im sorry..

Lovin' This Song~

I am unwritten
Can't read my mind
I'm undefined

I'm just beginning
The pen's in my hand
Ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words
That you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin

No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips

Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Oh, oh

I break tradition
Sometimes my tries
Are outside the lines

We've been conditioned
To not make mistakes
But I can't live that way, no

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words
That you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin

No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips

Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
To the years where your book begins
Feel the rain on your skin

No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips

Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
To the years where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words
That you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin

No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips

Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
To the years where your book begins
Feel the rain on your skin

No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips

Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
To the years where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten

This is ridiculous..

But hugging Dasi is kinda like hugging you.. only smaller =)

How can a person miss someone else when that person lives a few steps away from the other person?

How can someone feel lonely because that someone cant spend time with someone else?

Why is this person being so emotional like the person is pregnant or something?

Well, this person wants to let the other person know that this person understands that person is busy.

This someone know that the person is not doing it on purpose to make the someone feel alone.

But, this person cant help it.

It's funny how someone's heart can be so vulnerable and fragile at some points of their lives.

What a wrong time to be at that point.

This person wants to be held close to a persons heart and just lay there to hear it beat.

This person wants to be able to talk to the other person without crying like a retard.

This person wants the other person to know that this person wants to spend her whole life with the other person.

So it's ok if the person has no time now, because this person looks forward to the future.

I need you so much right now...