So I cry in the showers..

Do you have those moments in your life, when you feel you've put in all you've had.. Hoping that you'll find that silver lining from that grey cloud..

I dont know what to do, i dont feel any regret, because i dont know what else i was supposed to do...

I really really want to do better, and to be better..

Failing just isnt funny..

How much must a girl do to study and accept the fact that she's doing something she doesnt have much passion for?

I blame the management, for not briefien me thoroughly on my options...

You bloody fuckers didnt tell me i had a choice...

To choose another subject and mix..

And you didnt telll me i could switch subject after the programme had started..

Too late to complaint now..

I wish i could do better.. For myself..

Every time the paper gets back to my hand..

It's the same cycle of self pity, tears and complaints..

Hiding behind a veil hurts a lot..

I'll be strong for myself..

I have one more chance...

To prove myself for me and my parents..

Surrounded by achievers...

I hope i'll pull through..

God give me some grace...

Let me find my silver lining..

Please im begging you..

I know only i can help myself..

But i need some guidance..

Give me that at least..

One more shot thats all i've got..

Let me do this well..

Let me do this right...

Mom and dad i miss you so much..

I wish i had you here to scold me instead of saying "it's ok try harder" on the phone..

Its not ok..

Im not ok...

I just wanna make you proud of me...

Im sorry..