Clocks..

It's watching me, painfully scrutinizing my every move..
With every passing second,
It taunts me, reminds me,
Of what i've been trying to ignore..

Three days more?
Is that really all the time i have left?
i've been trying so hard..
To tell myself i'll be fine..
But im lying to myself and everyone around me
How long must i keep up with this charade?
I dont want to go..
Too little time..
I need more time..
Im leaving to soon...
I really dont want to go..
Im tired of not sleeping..
Tired of crying myself to sleep..
Tired of being afraid..
I just feel like screaming my soul out..
I just dont want to go...
I wanna be here.. with you..
like we planned.. but now its all different..
The damn clock wont stop ticking..