That ol' Saying..

I remember reading this line in books, and watch actors repeat this line in movies on the telly.. but i never really completely understood the logic in saying it..

"If you love someone, let them go."

Sound insane right? Well this is usually said when a break up occurs.. but this doesnt apply to me.. haha.. im not breaking up or anything.. but you know.. i had hopes and dreams of how my actual college experience would be.. prom.. walking to class together.. complaining about my day.. bitching about the lecturers.. maybe for once i'll break my insecure membrane and do something dangerous.. like.. clubbing.. OOPss.. bad thoughts.. ahhahahhaha.. well, now i have to face the facts.. reality is screaming into my ears and painted across every white wall.. haha.. i dont think i can put off the truth and try to act like the opposite might just happen anymore.. sure it was super hard when i first heard the verdict.. wow.. 4 years away.. a thousand miles away.. with skype and i talk as the only portal of communication..its a hugs change.. from being a kilometer away from each other in sandakan.. and a hostel block away in campus.. haha.. but you know.. i did tell you right this year i'd be Grace Kelly?

So i'd like to annonce that now.. i have learnt the complete phrase of the above..

“If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were.”

I know you are mine.. and i know that we can make this work.. no matter what you choose.. i'll always be there to hold your hand.. i'll back you up, support your decisions, give allowance to what you deserve to have.. so what.. four years.. i'll still be here.. Im indian.. so.. it's up to Fate.. i believe that if we were meant to be, we'll harrow through this storm.. and if we weren't then.. its just not our destiny.. but all i wanna say is that.. the sadness of parting is unevitable.. but when the tears dry up and the thin layer of depression peels away.. always know that i have your best interest at heart.. come back after 4 years... we'll be adults.. and finally build a future together.. so... because i love you, im letting you go =)

=)

IM SO HAPPY WITH MYSELF!!

I think i deserve a pat on the back.. haha.. i worked hard.. and i had an aim.. i got a little bit higher than i aimed.. which is better i guess =)

Yes people, SAM results.. Teehee.. i qualify for physiotherapy! Weee~~ old people and sports people here i come =)

But i know where im going.. i always have.. im just worried that i'll be on my own for the next 4 years.. Well, if its meant to be.. it'll happen.. so im keeping my fingers crossed...

Sigh..

Results are coming out soon.. on thursday as a matter of fact.. its all down to this now.. did my best.. hope the verdict is satisfactory..

I wish the clock would stop turning and the planet would stop spinning.. i need some time.. i want to talk to you so much.. time is not right all the time.. my patience and virtues are being tested  to the max.. i cant wait to be home..

You

You are my only exception.. call it cliche.. but there is no other way of phrasing it.. you are..

je'taime baby.. je'taime..

Cuppa Tea For The Yearning Soul..

Im stuck at home.. You're so busy.. Im leaving this friday.. You're leaving when i get back.. Ish..

Whatevs.. So i went out today with mum and dad and i got meself a relaly pretty dress with funky colours and it has this real pinstripes/hillbilly/girly feel to it.. its cute.. and i got another dress its silvery/blacky shimmery with sleeves.. but i guess it's too short to be worn on its own.. so out come the leggings =)

You know a perfect day to me is superly simple, and nope, it does not involve shopping at all. All i would ever want to make a day of my life all the more worth living for is to just spend a single day. Just one whole day with you. Waking up in the morning next to you, and watch you sleep while im awake. Make you breakfast and snuggle up while watching the crappy shows they have on the telly in the morning. Getting dressed in my super comfy pilak clothes (holes and all) and just sit, talk, watch tv, play scrabble? Just do things only the two of us can do.. But that never happens.. I spent today thinking about all the times we said we'd spend the day together.. and something always comes up.. naw im not gonna spill the beans here in cyberspace.. that'll be tactless.. But seriously.. Just this one wish.. that doesnt even come with a price tag.. has yet to be fulfilled.. dont get me wrong darling readers.. i aint complaining.. its just ironic.. the most simple things life has to offer.. is way tougher to achieve rather than those that are purchasable.. Life bites that way.. Well, i still have my hopes and dreams.. Hoping is not a crime isnt it.. it's just that, you gotta be prepared to brace the fall that comes with shattered hopes.. haha..

I miss you.. Thats all im saying.. Haha..

I dreamt about baby elephants last night.. this was soooo weird and kinda cool.. I was in some forest reserve center.. and i was there with my family and my uncle's family and we were there looking at huge elepants.. suddenly there was one baby elephant that was next to me and i was playing with it.. and my dad asked me if i wanted it.. and i said yea i want it.. and the next thing i know, we're litereally elephantnapping this baby elephant and there was a staircase to go up to the car park and we made it walk up the stairs.. which was not weird in the dream but was weird when i woke up.. and i had this huge ass Land Rover Defender, and we stuffed the elephant into it.. and drove back home.. and we had a collar for it and tied it to the banana tree in my backyard.. LOL!!

The first thing i thought bout when i woke up was, how we gonna clean the elephant poop?

Till next post lovers <3

uninspired..

I have so much of nothing to do right now.. i spoke to miss tan yesterday on fb.. she's really cute.. and she said i should go on a trip with boi boi.. LOL.. im only 18! well, she's really nice though.. and i've been just watching tv.. rewatching gossip girl, eating.. doing nothing.. sleeping.. and stuff.. nothing much.. im so bored.. typing this is boring.. bored............................................. *dead*

Girls Day Out!

Mum took me for a pampering ride.. first we did our face.. facials.. i hated it.. goodness me.. beauty sucks.. they poke and prod you like your a non erupting volcano.. haha.. but ma says "you look a shade whiter now!" whish i hardly can believe.. hahaha.. and then i did my hair... curls.. i look like a fusion of :-

                  

 




i got a little scared when i saw myself in the mirror..  not used to seeing curly hair after such a long time.. then mom said that i needed stuff from 'the body shop' and i said na'ah.. im too young and i dont use make up and ikky stuff like that.. XD well, she took me anyway.. lol.. and i got some stuff.. my ultimate favourite part is to go and try out all the testers!! one eye looked like a fused peacock and the othe one looked like it just got punched!! TEEEHEE~~

it was fun =)