Sayang..

Baby... =)

I is luff yu veli mach yu nou.. I is sollie i is imo nau.. Not me folt.. Yu manja manja me so mach.. Veli hart fo me to bee not wit yu.. I is solli i is shout at yu samtymes.. Me velli the bodoh.. I is think yu oledi no tat i kanot lif witautchu.. Yu is mai evlithing... I is solli wen i is iivel tu yu.. Me don min it.. Jus woMAN hormons go cwazy.. I is heppi tat yu owez der fo me.. Yu rok.. I luff yu.. Yu da bestiest.. awesomest.. superest.. hemsemest.. lovablest.. romanticest.. understandinest... and a lot more est.. in da hole waid world =)

I LUFF YU!

I miss this.. 

Inti Sucks...

Im back..
This place used to be my playground..
Now it looks like a cemetery..
Im alone..
Feeling empty to the core..
My hands are cold..
My eyes are sore..
I cant even look at all the spots we used to hang out at...
Do you know how bad it hurts?
I love you so much..
But i hate you for giving me hope that we'll be here together..
Im weak..
My willpower is below zero..
For you i'll try to be stronger..
I hate growing up..
You were my safety harness here..
Now i have to be careful..
I feel like a fool..
I need you here so much..
It's just not the same without you..
I know your still a phone call away..
I know that i'll be with you through whatever..
This is gonna be a rocky road..
It already is..
Fuck la...
Why am i so emo..
Im not like this..
I cant wait to get myself occupied..
I DONT want to be distracted..
I need to be good in what im doing..
I cant wait for these years to pass..
To have you to myself officially..
My hands are cold..
I need you to hold it tight..
Be patient with me..
These feelings are new..
Let me get used to this..
We'll be alright..
I miss you so much..
I hate this place to bits..
In 9 months anything can happen..
Im sorry i have to say this..
But i hope things do change..
And i hope you get to stay..
Still, i've got your back baby..
Long distance is the new rock climbing i heard..
Lets go for it then..
Bring on the ropes..

='(

Explanation!

I finally saw the light!! i was so amazingly emo on a whole new level and i only realised why today!! i was PMS-ing!! hahahah.. no wonder my pists were so retardedly sad and depressing!! i tend to cry a whole ocean of water during these troubled times.. hahaha.. i thought i was genuinely sad because i was leaving and all... but even i felt like i was overdoing the sadness.. untill.. tum tum tum.. the crimson wave overcame me.. hahaha.. and it all made sense =)

women.. so complicated.. XD

Clocks..

It's watching me, painfully scrutinizing my every move..
With every passing second,
It taunts me, reminds me,
Of what i've been trying to ignore..

Three days more?
Is that really all the time i have left?
i've been trying so hard..
To tell myself i'll be fine..
But im lying to myself and everyone around me
How long must i keep up with this charade?
I dont want to go..
Too little time..
I need more time..
Im leaving to soon...
I really dont want to go..
Im tired of not sleeping..
Tired of crying myself to sleep..
Tired of being afraid..
I just feel like screaming my soul out..
I just dont want to go...
I wanna be here.. with you..
like we planned.. but now its all different..
The damn clock wont stop ticking..

UNFAIR!!

God.. it soooo unfair when you just see these stick skinny toothpick sized girls chomping down a whole table full of food and yet not gain a single ounce.. UNFAIR! Curses to the indian 'voluptuous' genes.. wide hips.. thunder thighs.. a whale lot of (and i mean it when i say whal.. not a typo) of belly.. and of course.. the signature arse.. =S

And those girls? Eat everything under the sun.. and also fit into every single piece of garment under the sun.. goodness me.. UNFAIR!!

Hahaha.. well.. i got the inspiration to blurt this whole lot of lard after browsing through some random people in my facebook list.. the camwhore shots.. how do they do it? super skinny.. and the ability to take pictures of yourself? like.. seriously?? =(

Wellllll..... everything said and done.. i have to live with my curves.. haha.. i'll never be plank skinny.. its a fact i'll have to accept.. but hey.. respect to those who eat and still stay thin.. maybe its laxatives??

Food for thought ey? ;)

Happy Lemur's Day!

Im obsessed with lemurs now.. thanks to King Julian from the animated movie Madagascar!!

Go LEMURS!!!

Happy new year folks XD