Final breakdown..

To me, im the luckiest daughter in the world. I get almost everything i want from materialistic supplies to unconditional love and attention. I have been brought up to live for myself and not for others. Whatever i do is for me, not to benefit others. All i want to do is make you proud mum and dad. To give back all i can for everything that you have given me. I was afraid to call home today to tell you my results dad. But instead, you said all the things that i didnt have to. You told me there was nothing to be disappointed about because you knew i worked hard, you knew that i was trying my best. You said you were proud of me no matter what. Those words were the exact things i needed to hear. I really wish i could give you better, but then again, at least you know that i am giving it my all. In myself i want to do better, and i will go the extra mile to get what i want. It is true, im not used to underachieving. It's just not me to not achieve. I thought you would be sad and that i would have let you down. But i guess you both know me better than i know myself. I wish i was home so badly. Mum said before i left that i shouldn't cry. This makes it hard for me to leave and harder for them to let go. I must be strong, and learn how to live alone. I must not wallow in self pity or be emotionaly influenced. this is a part of life i have to live through. No turrning back, only walking forward. Though the road ahead is made of broken glass and burning coal, i will walk the walk. 

I just wish i could get those dad's bear hugs and mum's encouragement.. i miss you both.. i need you so much...