I HATE THIS!

ma..
i miss you..
i dont understand you nowadays..
weren't we able to talk about anything?
it's like you dont know me anymore..
and i cant seem to figure you out..
am i supposed to just predict how you are and how you feel?
i know i was rude and defensive..
but if you heard yourself then u would have reacted the same way..
i guess you're just sick of everything..
and i dont blame you for that..
but it's me..
i want to talk to you..
but instead you didnt give me the opportunity to talk..
it hurts a lot ma..
to hear all those things..
when i know iim not doing anything of that sort..
i guess you're just stressed..
and i understand..
you know how you say you're busy?
and remember the numerous times when you dont pick up the phone?
remember when i was a kid i used to call u\you a million times when you didnt answer?
you know how i felt?
and remember how your answer was;
'i was busy', or 'i didnt see the phone' or 'i left my phone at home'
how come when it happens to me its not as simple as that..
how many apologies do i need to give..
i know that you feel alone..
but dont you think i feel it too?